you're the one for me fatty!

I feel a need to take a break from by lost binge I have been on for 3 days now and vent. I went shopping this weekend with a friend and was overwhelmed by my old feelings of inadequacies I once had as a teenager. I am a self identified feminist and try to make my feminisms inclusive of body politics. Some people are in awe when I say this or very confused. At times people believe I am speaking of some kind of "sexual liberation" feminism so I then have to rephrase it and say, "I am fat positive!" Let me tell you though, the world outside my door is not. I grew up on the punk side and always browsed the Goodwill and the Salvation Army for my attire. I have gone through phases where I desired to mirror a little old lady or a mod. Inevitably though, I end up with nothing. I would sometimes come up at the Goodwill but rarely ever at the "hip" thrift stores like Buffalo Exchange. Now you see, Buffalo exchange and other stores like it are geared towards cool kids. Let me tell you, cool kids are not fat or even chubby. If you want to find old vintage cutie dresses or hand me down forever21 gear then you need not apply because they aren't going to have your size. Just recently Buffalo exchange started carrying size 12 jeans and sometimes 14 or even dare shall I say it...16!!! Chubby girls want to look hot too ya know. We don't want to be stuck only looking in the shoe and bag section while their skinny friends tear apart the clothing racks with so many items found, they can't even hold 'em. We want the cheap style too. Which leads me to my next irritation. I have had friends/lovers say "if I were you I would just learn how to make that stuff!" Like it is that easy. Not that it isn't a fabulous idea but honestly, I am not a creative seamstress. I can sew up pants and put some patches on a hoody but as far as patterns go-it is a nightmare! Why do chubby girls have to be the creative ones and make their own clothing? My next grievance is skinny friends refusing to acknowledge their privelages and act as if it is normal and there is nothing they can do about it. First off, if shopping is your favorite past time I can understand why we wouldn't connect in the first place. but if we are friends like so many of you have been then what is the deal? My skinny friends have always acted like I have a chip on my shoulder and am guilt tripping them and ruining their good time. Come on! Why is fat discrimination the politically correct discrimination? People treat us like the world treats transients and the homeless "they got themselves there, they can get themselves out if they cared or had enough will power." Bullshit! I have skinny friends who eat way more than I do and eat shittier foods than I do. I come up on my veggies every day, do you? Anyways, I guess I just want to start a dialogue about feminism and body politics again. I want feminists to engage about being fat and being skinny and what that provides for you in society or takes away from you. I want my friends and fellow bloggers to acknolodge fat discrimination as a valid opression and analyze how they incorporate it into their own lives.

Love,
Monica a.k.a. belly full of soup.